hello future

I just bought my GRE review books.  Hopefully Kaplan won’t let me down.  I don’t remember any math but calculus.  So review is definitely necessary.

I had better get into grad school after all this hassle.

But really…

Making a back-up plan, just in case:  Move to China.

lets be fools

this isn’t my favourite version of it, but this is definitely my all time favourite song.

Let’s burn down all our bridges.
Let’s rush in. Let’s make haste.
Let’s get too big for our britches.
Let’s want what we waste.
Let’s not scratch it if it itches.
Let’s cut off our nose to spite our face.
Let’s choose to be beggars.
Let’s shoot all the messengers.
Let’s have an hour of fame.
Let’s bark up the wrong tree.
Let’s be fools and let’s raise cain.
Before they hatch let’s count all our chickens.
Let’s sow what we reap.
Let’s stand the heat, let’s stay in the kitchen.
Let’s find but not keep.
Let’s break all the things that don’t need fixing.
Let’s lose but not weep.
Let’s choose to be beggars.
Let’s shoot all the messengers.
Let’s have an hour of fame.
Let’s bark up the wrong tree.
Let’s be fools and let’s raise cain.

Unnecessary

Why why why do I try to make sense of everything?  Or have big ideas?  Or try to figure things out.

I’d rather just let life be.  It will do what it is going to do.  Maybe there isn’t a pattern.  Maybe things just happen.

And people just are.  And you just live.

cynical enough to believe

i am dying to believe again.  to be naive enough to understand that loving people really is the key to solving all the worlds problems.  to take the equations and the steps and the complications and ignore them in reckless abandon.  to lay down my armor. to permit beauty.  to breathe deeply.  to laugh, to kiss, and to cry.  to tell you all the things i would normally hold inside.  i want to ignore the big picture and focus on the here and now.  to see what really matters.

i want the courage to be innocent and the wisdom to be imprudent.