Three posts in a day must mean I have some homework assignment I don’t want to do.
Successes for my day: I lined up three professors who would be willing to send letters of recommendation for me. Ever since a friend of mine they looked at their letters of recommendation, I’ve been nervous about what mine must say. I never read them in the past. WERE THEY BAD?! Stressssssss.
This stressing must be part of what gives me headaches.
Stress from thinking: What the hell am I going to do with the rest of my life? Stress from having a real long-term plan one minute and the next, wanting to throw all long-term plans out the window. Some days, I want to get my phD, I want to work in a college, I want to do big things, take important research trips, grade papers. The next minute, I don’t want to pick something. I just want to follow life wherever it takes me. Really live in the moment.
It would help if I could make up my mind.
All I know is that I want to love. The how, where, and whys stay unanswered.