…if the world was how it should be, maybe I could get some sleep.
I can hear people screaming in the distance. It feels like deep fall. Maybe these cries are coming from a Halloween haunted house. Maybe today really is 31 October and I missed the last month and a half. It really feels like it today. The air is crisp and cold. But I suppose the leaves are too green. And I have not eaten enough apples.
Two of my good friends got married today. To each other. And it was beautiful. It just felt right. Or maybe it felt Irish. But I count that as right. When I was younger, I took it for granted that people got married. Now at weddings, I find myself asking why. I see pictures on Facebook of giddy people holding up bejeweled left hands and it makes less sense. The necessity of the institution is less of a given for me. I don’t always have a good answer for my question “why”. But then again, I don’t always have a good answer for my question “why not”.
I think 99% of my poor decisions in life relate to my desire to have a vice. Its so glamorous.