I was reading outside in the Sunken Gardens this afternoon at TSU. The air smelled like rain and they have finally planted flowers in all the beds. It was so still and so beautiful. The only thing that seemed to be moving were those little ants that crawl all over sidewalks everywhere you go. They may be the common factor the world can unite over. Miniature ants. Where ever I go, if I sit on the ground, I always find these guys crawling all over my feet, my hands, my books. They are always so busy. And I’m just a surface in their way. An obstacle to be overcome. Its humbling and beautiful to know how much more there is living and moving and breathing in the world.
I feel much more at peace than I have for a while now. I’m preparing for how it will feel to finally leave this place. I’m leaving a lot here. And taking a lot with me. I think this will be hard, but right. I’m learning a lot about myself and my heart lately. It feels good to be still. I need to take that time more often. We all do. Slow down. Be.
I watched the Disney Channel last night to provide background noise for my studying. And laughed. A lot. And I watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants during my studying today (I guess I’ve been in a Disney girl mood?) and felt more moved by that movie than most sermons I’ve heard lately. I guess God speaks truth in unusual ways. Haha. From the mouths of infants? Or Disney…
William Fitzsimmons is making my 中文 studying much more tolerable. Look him up. Good music. (Thanks Xndr) Back to the books now.
“And if you ever came near, I’d hold up high a mirror. Lord, I could never show you anything as beautiful as You.” (mewithoutyou)